“And this is what I learned: You can be shattered and then you can put yourself back together piece by piece.
But what can happen over time is this: You wake up one day and realize that you have put yourself back together completely differently. That you are whole, finally, and strong – but you are now a different shape, a different size. This sort of change — the change that occurs when you sit inside your own pain — it’s revolutionary. When you let yourself die, there is suddenly one day: new life. You are Different. New. And no matter how hard you try, you simply cannot fit into your old life anymore. You are like a snake trying to fit into old, dead skin, or a butterfly trying to crawl back into the cocoon, or new wine trying to pour itself back into an old wineskin. This new you is equal parts undeniable and terrifying.
Because you just do not fit. And suddenly you know that. And you have become a woman who doesn’t ignore her knowing. Who doesn’t pretend she doesn’t know. Because pretending makes you sick. And because you never promised yourself an easy life, but you did promise yourself a true one. You did promise – back when you were putting yourself back together – that you’d never betray you again.” ~ Glennon Doyle Melton
This week’s haiku was inspired by the beautiful words of Glennon Doyle Melton, the founder of Momastery and author of the upcoming book Love Warrior. They are excerpted from a blog post published on Monday about separating from her husband. It is raw, honest and vulnerable and spoke to me deeply. I’ve read it several times now and just nodded my head. I urge you to read it in its entirely, no matter your relationship status. It is about love and being true to yourself. Don’t stop until the very end. The p.s. was actually my favorite part. READ: I need to tell you something
Broken down and built back up
For a new purpose